As a highly sensitive person I feel acutely and intuitive aware of the subtleties in life – the tiny details. Details, that probably go unnoticed by the majority of people, are glaringly obvious to me. It’s hard to settle for ‘good enough’; I expect more. As a high sensation seeker I am always driven – I call it being a ‘more’ person.
Being a HSP and a HSS, I am intuitively driven to seek more, to learn more, to climb higher, to travel further, to dig deeper, to push myself to the limit and beyond, while also acutely aware of the risks in doing so. I can be incredibly impatient to feed this drive for more, but also need to acknowledge that there is a need for safety and recognition of the risks.
For me, Perfectionism goes hand-in-hand with this drive for more, and the high standards I set for myself. Intuitively ‘knowing’ what feels ‘just right’, and unwilling to settle for anything less; enjoying the rush of success at achieving that perfect sweet spot.
On the positive side this can be highly motivating, exciting and wonderfully stimulating. On the negative side, this can really feed into the voice of my harsh inner critic, that wants to protect, fears change and can overwhelm me.
It takes mindful awareness to bring balance to the positive and the negative aspects, so that I can stay motivated and not overwhelmed by the minute details. It takes effort to be accepting when ‘good enough’ is sufficient, and not “sweat the small stuff”.
I’m a visual person, so I like to use the analogy of balancing on a high tightrope, with boredom on one side and overwhelm on the other, while juggling. At times I can keep many balls in the air, but at other times I need to throw a few balls over my shoulder and just focus on one, or risk falling.
It’s vital to build awareness and acceptance that I’m only an imperfect human, when all’s said and done, and my best is good enough.
